The Bittersweet Goodbyes

As most people do I hate goodbyes, they are the pits. However goodbyes are a part of life, that we will never be able to avoid. We can say hello one minute and soon after be bidding farewell to something great. I feel as though I have had to say goodbye more than enough times in these short 26 years that I have lived. Having to say goodbye to my two best friends in the whole world was hard but as of late I am having to say goodbye to a new friend. A friend with whom I have only known for a little amount of time but yet and still I feel like its just as hard to say goodbye. Maybe it is so hard for me to say goodbye because I feel as though I have had to do it so much, or maybe its because goodbyes are just hard by themselves. Whatever the reason I wished they didn't exist but they do so I am going to just have to deal with them as they come. On the other hand if we didn't have to say goodbye to things or people then we wouldn't ever know the reasons they were put in our lives in the first place. Sometimes we have to say goodbye for better things to come, to know what those things mean to us, or how good they really are to us. I feel as though I will truly learn something from this goodbye just because its a different goodbye. I don't feel as though it is the end of this newly found friendship that has just began but maybe the beginning to a longer one with a little distance in between. The great thing is we are still going to be friends and I get to go to a new city that I have never visited before and maybe take on some new adventures. One thing is certain this goodbye won't be easy but this friend is definitely someone worth missing and will certainly be missed very much. <3

My Birthday

This past week I was on vacation for my birthday and this weekend I happened have made it to the Port City for my birthday bash that was given by one of my best girlfriends Monique. This weekend was one of the best weekends I have ever had and the memories that I have made will be unforgettable. I hate that the weekend is coming to a close but it has definitely been one of the funnest weekends that I have had. My birthday party was thrown at an authentic Japanese restaurant and it was very classy and intimate. The people that was able to be apart of it Monque, Latifa, Tuesday, and Pleasure, I can't thank you ladies enough for making it pure happiness for me. My cake was an amazing Marylin Monroe cake in which Monique truly put her heart into having made because she knew it would make me happy. She thought of everything when it come to planning this party and her hard work definitely paid of because made this Super Model a very happy woman. Every detail was perfection and had my name written all over everything that was planned for me. From the place the party was hosted at, the cake, the gifts, and the lovely people that made this weekend so special, I couldn't be anymore happier than I am at this very moment. I want to thank you ladies from the bottom of my heart, I really cannot put into words how happy this weekend has made me because of how special each of you made it for me. THANK YOU AGAIN AND I LOVE EACH OF YOU WITHOUT AN END. <3

A Woman's Intuition

We as women have an intuition and for the most part that intuition is going to always let us know when something is not right. In relationships, friendships, and life our intuition will always help us with decision making. My intuition has definitely helped me to see the light when I was supposed to rather than whether I wanted to. There have been numerous times when I have had my intuition show me the truth over all lies and real over all fake. Relationships and friendships that were full of lies have definitely been exposed because of my intuition and the insight that it gave me about those situations. People that have been painted fake were definitely washed away with truth because of the honesty my intuition brought to me. For all women there have been many instances in your life in which your intuition told you the truth about dishonesty in your life I am sure. There probably have also been times that you tried to ignore that honest intuition and became very deceived by the lies being told around you, but in the end you realized you should have followed that never wrong always right intuition of yours. There have been relationships and friendships in my life that have been deceived by lies and the fake but I have learned to always follow that intuition of mine that never guides me in the wrong direction but always brings me to my right destination. Through everything ladies remember that your woman intuition is aways right and will never lie to you.

Drama Love And Relationships

When the going gets tough in relationships are we really supposed to just deal with it? I used to believe that relationships were supposed to be this absolute perfect thing. As I have grown older I have learned that relationships are not perfect and they take a tremendous amount of work if you want them to be successful. However, there comes a time in any relationship if the drama outweighs the love then there may need to do some reconsidering on the relationship. Sometimes you can work on a relationship and there be no progress, therefore, the work really isn't paying off. The big question would be what is it that you are working on if no progress is being made. As I have stood in the background and watched one of my closest girlfriends relationship it  has reminded me of my previous relationship in many aspects. She just like I did has fought very hard for the man she loves and the relationship she is in, but it has come to a complete stand still. She has been through everything with this man yet and still he continues to do wrong. His wrong doings continue to break her heart and make her unhappy. Although there will always be some sort of drama in a relationship there has to also be boundaries set. We no matter man or woman have to know exactly what we want and what we are and aren't willing to put up with in a relationship. If the same mistakes become repetitive then it is really not a mistake anymore it has become more of a habit. Sometimes difficult decisions have to be made to bring peace to a situation, even if it does mean ending a relationship. Sometimes we try and fight the fact that we really need to let go but in reality it may be something that we just need to do. After ending a relationship I had been in for three years I was heartbroken but time definitely allowed me to see that he was not the one for me. I did not deserve the things that he put me through and he didnt deserve me and the woman I was to him. So with that being said my friend does not deserve the things that she has to endure everyday in the relationship she is in and her worth is far more valuable than him and the things he puts her through. To her, you are one of the strongest women I know and everything will work out in due time, you and I both know this from past experiences.

SN: Anything worth having is worth fighting and if you really want something to work you have to go to war. Also remember both people have to put up an equal fight during the war or else the war becomes a total loss with nothing to fight for.

Birthday Wishes And Thanks

February 15, my birthday and such a special day for me. Turning 26 was great but having the people that I care most about join me on this day was even better. Although I was missing 2 very important people of my life who live a million miles away, even with the distance they still made it special. My dinner went splendidly well and the faces of the people I care so much about made it such a wonderful time.
Hello's and Thank You's Jen,Nassiyah,and Kendrick for my wonderful Marilyn Monroe picture, loved it. Jen thanks for laughing and having those cocktails with me. Nassiyah thanks for twitpicin me and spelling my twitter name wrong lol. Charles thank you for gracing us with your presence, everyone was glad they got to meet the person that they hear so much about. Also thanks for bringing Jaylen he was a joy as always. Erin you were as always extra quiet,thank you for your presence and lovely card I loved it. Yolanda I enjoyed having you there with your tardy for the party self, I love you mama and thanks for my BeBe. There were a few people missing my @MzDaniB09 wasn't there due to work your presence was missed. El's I wished you were there because I miss you calling me Yam. Aria you called during the dinner so you were there in spirit. The time would have been even better if you were there in the physical with your bootaylicious self. Also my 2 girls that I love beyond all words Heather H.E.R. your twitter made my heart melt and I burst into tears while I was at the office. Good tears though, I miss you and wished you were here you haven't ever missed my birthday! I love you like there is no tomorrow <3! Monique you and I will be reunited and it feels so good in 1 day being that I'm writing this today, Wednesday at 3am. I wished you were there to give me those laughs , those breathtaking, stomach hurting laughs. I love you without an end. Can't wait for my party that you are going to be the host of this weekend, I know its gonna be Super Model status. You are right celebrities don't know some of their fans but this weekend I will and by the way I have made it known my birthday is all week until Sunday! These are some of the most important people in my life and each of them made this day very special for me. I thank you all kindly and I love you all greatly <3. To those who flooded my facebook,twitter,called and or text me thank you for the love and thinking of me on this special day! <3 Love, Me

Salautations 26 And Farewell 25

Birthdays, getting older, and age these things are all a natural part of life, they come around every year for everyone. Each year my birthday is a big deal for me but this year in particular it is an even bigger deal. Seeing 25 go and 26 come is exciting because of this new beginning that I have in my life, not only that but also because I am continuing this journey in becoming the woman that I long to be. I am not one bit scared of being a year older because with age comes wisdom. I hope that 26 will be as lucky as past years but also I hope for it to be a year full happiness, blessings, and just living life to its fullest. I can't wait for what 26 entails with all its peaks and pits but most importantly I can't wait to just see what will happen over the next year in my life. Excited, I hope it is just as wonderful as years past, with just as many sex and the city moments too :-). Age is nothing but a number and isn't such a bad thing especially when there is so many things about it to be excited about. So with everything you are going to bring, 26 I am excited about you and salutations! <3

For Nassiyah

Today this very special girl by the name of Nassiyah who is close to my heart said something that blew me away, she said " gosh Candice you are perfect I just love you and everything about you, you and your life are so perfect". I had to laugh at those words that humbled me to the core and made me just a tad bit embarrassed. While I am only one of your mother's closest friends, me being the person I am I always want to set a good example for you because I know you look up to me. I also have to say that the person I am surpasses every materialistic thing that I have, and the prettiness that you see on the outside doesn't come close to comparing to who I really am on the inside. I have worked hard and fought hard to become the woman that I am today. While having nice things is wonderful, there is so much more to life than clothes, shoes, a car, and my wonderful downtown apartment. Remember that materialistic things don't matter at the end of the day it is the genuine and real things that give your life the most pleasure. I hope to teach you how beautiful it is for a woman to be strong and have class. Self respect is one of the most important things a human being can have because if you have respect for yourself then other people will have respect for you too. Values and morals are a very important part of my life so make sure you have yours and follow them, they will play a very big part in who you will become. Life isn't fair and through the years you will learn that and sometimes it will totally suck having to deal with all the unfairness. Sometimes we as women have to fight ten times harder because we are women living in supposedly a mans world, but remember we can live in a mans world just be the best woman you can be in it. You will fall in love plenty of times before you are 25 and your heart will get broken more times than one, but one day you will find true love and it will be the best thing you will ever know. I can't tell you everything about life, its through living your that you will learn about life and all its many lessons. For you Nassiyah, you are such a beautiful girl who will one day in turn become an even more beautiful woman. I can already see that you are going to be a fashionista yourself, its a joy to share some of my fashion secrets with you. Continue to let academics be the main priority in your life, learning is fundamental in becoming successful. Always follow the beat of your own tune, it is with that beat that you will find who you really are. Always be yourself because you will be most beautiful when being perfectly yourself. You make it such a pleasure for me to be myself around you. I love you very much and will always be here for you. Love, Candice <3