Could My Mistake Have Messed Up My Fate

The question that really exist is, did I make a mistake and mess up my fate? The catch 22 thing definitely does exist especially when you are dealing with whether or not you should be honest about how you feel. I feel as though if I say how I feel it will mess things up and if I don't say how I feel then it eventually mess things up, so either way things will be messed up. Though it may not be as complicated as I am making it to be, on the inside of me it is as complicated as it seems. If I would have just spoken how I felt, then at this very moment maybe I wouldn't be feeling as though me not saying anything was a mistake. We certainly can choose what our mouths say to other people but can we really choose how things will end up with those people as well. That's the hard part about life, friendships, and relationships our actions and emotions play a very important role on the outcome of these parts of our lives. We, however, can't choose when the beginning or ending to something will be only time can really determine that for us. Though it may have been a mistake for me to say how I feel it could have in turn been a mistake not sharing how I feel, but only time can truly tell. So maybe our mistakes is what make our fate and without them what would shape our lives. Perhaps if we never veered off course we wouldn't fall in love or be who we really are. After all I have learned seasons do change, people come into our lives for seasons and people leave just as quickly as they came. At the end of the day its comforting to know the ones you love and care for will always be in your heart and if your as lucky as I am a plane ride away too. <3

Sometimes There Are Hiccups

Every relationship personal or business will have what I like to call a hiccup. Real terminology for hiccups would be an argument, a bump in the road, or a mere disagreement. Just because we have a hiccup with someone or something every once in awhile doesn't mean it is the end of the world, just a disagreement. As for me I sometimes get really bothered by the hiccups that I have with other people or things in my life. Maybe it is because I am a little sensitive at times but there are some people that I would never want to have a hiccup with, just because of who they are and my relationship with them. Recently I had a hiccup with a person with whom I care a lot about personally and on the business level. I have to say it was truly the pits for me and from that one hiccup I learned a tremendous amount about the quality of the relationship that I have with that person and how much a hiccup can actually help and not hurt a situation. Though I worried a lot that day after having a disagreement with this person apart of me knew I had made a mistake with the way I conducted my self in the situation I was in. The next day I made a simple phone call that was truly the water that cured the hiccups. After apologizing for my actions I learned one of the most important lessons from one of the most important people in my life. That lesson being that while conducting business there will sometimes be things that I don't agree with and I will sometimes get frustrated with business situations, but there is a time and place to handle those things that I don't and won't always agree with. I now know even more so than before that the one person I always go to will continue to be there no matter what the frustration at hand is. Nothing has changed and he will not change no matter what the situation. However, he will always be the person that helps balance out the business aspect of my world and make everything better. I feel lucky and blessed to have him in my world as a friend and a business mentor. Hiccups can sometimes hurt and become obnoxiously loud but a mere conversation which serves as a glass of water can cure even the most common cases of hiccups.

The Bittersweet Goodbyes

As most people do I hate goodbyes, they are the pits. However goodbyes are a part of life, that we will never be able to avoid. We can say hello one minute and soon after be bidding farewell to something great. I feel as though I have had to say goodbye more than enough times in these short 26 years that I have lived. Having to say goodbye to my two best friends in the whole world was hard but as of late I am having to say goodbye to a new friend. A friend with whom I have only known for a little amount of time but yet and still I feel like its just as hard to say goodbye. Maybe it is so hard for me to say goodbye because I feel as though I have had to do it so much, or maybe its because goodbyes are just hard by themselves. Whatever the reason I wished they didn't exist but they do so I am going to just have to deal with them as they come. On the other hand if we didn't have to say goodbye to things or people then we wouldn't ever know the reasons they were put in our lives in the first place. Sometimes we have to say goodbye for better things to come, to know what those things mean to us, or how good they really are to us. I feel as though I will truly learn something from this goodbye just because its a different goodbye. I don't feel as though it is the end of this newly found friendship that has just began but maybe the beginning to a longer one with a little distance in between. The great thing is we are still going to be friends and I get to go to a new city that I have never visited before and maybe take on some new adventures. One thing is certain this goodbye won't be easy but this friend is definitely someone worth missing and will certainly be missed very much. <3

My Birthday

This past week I was on vacation for my birthday and this weekend I happened have made it to the Port City for my birthday bash that was given by one of my best girlfriends Monique. This weekend was one of the best weekends I have ever had and the memories that I have made will be unforgettable. I hate that the weekend is coming to a close but it has definitely been one of the funnest weekends that I have had. My birthday party was thrown at an authentic Japanese restaurant and it was very classy and intimate. The people that was able to be apart of it Monque, Latifa, Tuesday, and Pleasure, I can't thank you ladies enough for making it pure happiness for me. My cake was an amazing Marylin Monroe cake in which Monique truly put her heart into having made because she knew it would make me happy. She thought of everything when it come to planning this party and her hard work definitely paid of because made this Super Model a very happy woman. Every detail was perfection and had my name written all over everything that was planned for me. From the place the party was hosted at, the cake, the gifts, and the lovely people that made this weekend so special, I couldn't be anymore happier than I am at this very moment. I want to thank you ladies from the bottom of my heart, I really cannot put into words how happy this weekend has made me because of how special each of you made it for me. THANK YOU AGAIN AND I LOVE EACH OF YOU WITHOUT AN END. <3

A Woman's Intuition

We as women have an intuition and for the most part that intuition is going to always let us know when something is not right. In relationships, friendships, and life our intuition will always help us with decision making. My intuition has definitely helped me to see the light when I was supposed to rather than whether I wanted to. There have been numerous times when I have had my intuition show me the truth over all lies and real over all fake. Relationships and friendships that were full of lies have definitely been exposed because of my intuition and the insight that it gave me about those situations. People that have been painted fake were definitely washed away with truth because of the honesty my intuition brought to me. For all women there have been many instances in your life in which your intuition told you the truth about dishonesty in your life I am sure. There probably have also been times that you tried to ignore that honest intuition and became very deceived by the lies being told around you, but in the end you realized you should have followed that never wrong always right intuition of yours. There have been relationships and friendships in my life that have been deceived by lies and the fake but I have learned to always follow that intuition of mine that never guides me in the wrong direction but always brings me to my right destination. Through everything ladies remember that your woman intuition is aways right and will never lie to you.

Drama Love And Relationships

When the going gets tough in relationships are we really supposed to just deal with it? I used to believe that relationships were supposed to be this absolute perfect thing. As I have grown older I have learned that relationships are not perfect and they take a tremendous amount of work if you want them to be successful. However, there comes a time in any relationship if the drama outweighs the love then there may need to do some reconsidering on the relationship. Sometimes you can work on a relationship and there be no progress, therefore, the work really isn't paying off. The big question would be what is it that you are working on if no progress is being made. As I have stood in the background and watched one of my closest girlfriends relationship it  has reminded me of my previous relationship in many aspects. She just like I did has fought very hard for the man she loves and the relationship she is in, but it has come to a complete stand still. She has been through everything with this man yet and still he continues to do wrong. His wrong doings continue to break her heart and make her unhappy. Although there will always be some sort of drama in a relationship there has to also be boundaries set. We no matter man or woman have to know exactly what we want and what we are and aren't willing to put up with in a relationship. If the same mistakes become repetitive then it is really not a mistake anymore it has become more of a habit. Sometimes difficult decisions have to be made to bring peace to a situation, even if it does mean ending a relationship. Sometimes we try and fight the fact that we really need to let go but in reality it may be something that we just need to do. After ending a relationship I had been in for three years I was heartbroken but time definitely allowed me to see that he was not the one for me. I did not deserve the things that he put me through and he didnt deserve me and the woman I was to him. So with that being said my friend does not deserve the things that she has to endure everyday in the relationship she is in and her worth is far more valuable than him and the things he puts her through. To her, you are one of the strongest women I know and everything will work out in due time, you and I both know this from past experiences.

SN: Anything worth having is worth fighting and if you really want something to work you have to go to war. Also remember both people have to put up an equal fight during the war or else the war becomes a total loss with nothing to fight for.

Birthday Wishes And Thanks

February 15, my birthday and such a special day for me. Turning 26 was great but having the people that I care most about join me on this day was even better. Although I was missing 2 very important people of my life who live a million miles away, even with the distance they still made it special. My dinner went splendidly well and the faces of the people I care so much about made it such a wonderful time.
Hello's and Thank You's Jen,Nassiyah,and Kendrick for my wonderful Marilyn Monroe picture, loved it. Jen thanks for laughing and having those cocktails with me. Nassiyah thanks for twitpicin me and spelling my twitter name wrong lol. Charles thank you for gracing us with your presence, everyone was glad they got to meet the person that they hear so much about. Also thanks for bringing Jaylen he was a joy as always. Erin you were as always extra quiet,thank you for your presence and lovely card I loved it. Yolanda I enjoyed having you there with your tardy for the party self, I love you mama and thanks for my BeBe. There were a few people missing my @MzDaniB09 wasn't there due to work your presence was missed. El's I wished you were there because I miss you calling me Yam. Aria you called during the dinner so you were there in spirit. The time would have been even better if you were there in the physical with your bootaylicious self. Also my 2 girls that I love beyond all words Heather H.E.R. your twitter made my heart melt and I burst into tears while I was at the office. Good tears though, I miss you and wished you were here you haven't ever missed my birthday! I love you like there is no tomorrow <3! Monique you and I will be reunited and it feels so good in 1 day being that I'm writing this today, Wednesday at 3am. I wished you were there to give me those laughs , those breathtaking, stomach hurting laughs. I love you without an end. Can't wait for my party that you are going to be the host of this weekend, I know its gonna be Super Model status. You are right celebrities don't know some of their fans but this weekend I will and by the way I have made it known my birthday is all week until Sunday! These are some of the most important people in my life and each of them made this day very special for me. I thank you all kindly and I love you all greatly <3. To those who flooded my facebook,twitter,called and or text me thank you for the love and thinking of me on this special day! <3 Love, Me