New Direction

I have put a lot of thought into going into a new direction with this blog and making it not only a blog about my life, love, relationships, my girlfriends and friendships but about all of that and the simple things yet the pleasurable things in my life too. Maybe posting things that inspire me and others but also keep my insightful blogs about my life coming as well. I still want to be able to share my life and be a Carrie Bradshaw persona, if you will, but also liven things up a little too. Regardless which direction I choose to take I do not want to lose the whole concept of why I really started this blog in the first place but I also want to bring something that is truly me and then some to the table. I want this blog to be about my life, lessons, love, girlfriends, relationships, friendships, fashion, and the simple yet beautiful things in life. I want to stand out from the rest by making this blog have it all and give it something that does indeed stand out from the rest. This is my blog and alot like my life it is a work in progress but I am so in love with every bit of it!

Learning To Love Again

For anyone ending a relationship it is hard but sometimes the harder part is allowing you to move on, and love again. These are the tricky things in life but there comes a time when you have to let go of past demons, relationships, and heartbreaks, so that you can feel those beautiful things there use to be with someone new. As hard as these things may be the thought of not ever loving again should be even harder for you to grasp than the thought of you ever being hear broken again. Heartbreaks and people come and go, however, you can choose to move on, start fresh, and let life be the beautiful thing that is even if sometimes it can be heartbreaking. The heartbreak and lessons learned are what makes love, life and friendships so much more worthwhile, and without these things life wouldn’t be as pleasurable. A girlfriend of mine has been seeing a guy for 8 months but is hesitant to move to the next phase and begin a real relationship with him. However she does like him and says that he is the greatest guy she has ever met and he in fact has changed her life but that she feels like she is not ready for a "relationship". I beg to differ and I told her that she is ready for a relationship but is instead getting in her own way and will not let herself be in a relationship. I feel as though she is scared to put herself out there because she does not want to be hurt again but every relationship is not going to be like the last, she does have the choice to take everything she has learned from the past and make this relationship a better one if she chooses to do so. She will eventually have to open her heart again as we all do at one point or another to someone even if it is not the guy she is seeing at the present moment, so why not open her heart now being that she has found someone she really likes and that likes her in return.

To her, I hope you trust the woman you are enough to make yourself happy. Love is amazing and maybe it is your time to feel just how amazing it can be after all this time. You have learned from the past and are a wiser and better person because of those things that taught you some of the hardest lessons. Do not let yourself miss out on love and all the wonder things that it will bring to your life because you are scared or feel as though you are not ready. Instead have a positive outlook and look at is as a journey that can be this beautiful and life changing experience. Many people never get the chance to experience love, so know that you are truly blessed because you have the opportunity for love to be a part of your life again. Hopefully you can find it in your heart to give love a chance before you throw it away again, it may surprise you this time around.

Will I Meet Love Again

I often wonder how often does love come around and will I be single for the rest of my life? Better yet will I fall in love again or will love pass me by? Lately I feel like I do not even know what to think about love and I am left wondering does it still exist. Honestly I am a little scared because I am afraid I will not ever fall in love again. I know that being scared that I will not fall in love again is rather silly but it is also the truth. I guess maybe instead of putting so much thought into it, I should just let go let flow and see what happens. Love is an amazing thing to experience and it will take hold of you when you least expect it, that is something that I have learned and is very true. I am not out looking for love because I feel like if its meant for me it will find me wherever I am at in my life. However, I wonder will it find me ever again? I asked my borrowed Momz just this question "do you think I will ever fall in love again?", her response was "yes you will fall in love again and soon". At that very moment I knew that if Momz believed that I was going to fall in love again, the I should believe it to. After all love is what makes the world go round.

The Past And A Bad Day

Even after you let go of some of the most hurtful things in your life they sometimes will come back. Disruptive, hurtful, and inconvenient all over again, they will be there whether you want them there or not. Two days ago the past came back to deliver some news that surprisingly shook me a little on the inside. The news came to much surprise but I thought back to something that a wise woman told me 8 months ago, and that was don't try to get revenge instead revenge will happen own its own. The news itself was actually a bit of revenge but it hurt a little too. A very prominent male friend in my life taught me lesson in a different way today, that was that I do care and even if I don't love the past anymore I can care. Caring about someone doesn't make me wrong nor does it make me love that person again. He also made those moments of chaos and confusion more understanding and peaceful as he always does, so I want to say thank you to him. After the past couple of days of mixed emotions that I have had and surprisingly a few calm conversations with the past, I realize that some things will remind you and teach you even after you let go of them. That's what they are supposed to do, those things will sneak up on you in memories over time because they show you the lessons that you have learned and just how far you have come. So with this being said a bad day is just a day and I will make tomorrow a better one. <3

SN:: Thanks to CM for your enlightenment in my moment of chaos.....And Aria singing that song oh how you made today a better one for me *ROADRUNNER*!

Just Me

After much debate about starting a blog, I have to admit I feel like I made the right decision with creating this site. I had a lot of thoughts about going into this project and a lot of skepticism about whether or not I could actually do it and stick with it. I have to say I surprised myself with all that has been accomplished since I began this blog, because even though its challenging at times I have still found things worth writing about. Even if it in my opinion will never be as good or as talented as close friend of mines blog with whom I admire so much, I have come to realize things don't have to be about music or celebrities all the time for it to be worth reading. I thoroughly enjoy writing on this site and I know that it will only get better from here. This is my life and I enjoy every second of it regardless of the love woe, friendship problem, or one of the many lessons I write about daily, I happen to love it. Although I admire other bloggers sites, I also admire my own for the simple fact that it is something real that nobody will ever be able to take away from me because it is me and my life that it consist of. One of the biggest lessons I have learned is that I don't have to be hip hop, fashion, or sports to have something to blog about. Instead I am just myself, that chick with a Sex and the City aura that won't stop writing not even for one second.

Just Have Fun

Can one person really not have fun or know what fun is ? I myself know that I have fun and I like having fun. I really do not understand how someone does not have fun but I also do not know the reason behind a person not having fun or wanting to have fun. However, I have thought about this topic and I continue to wonder how someone doesn't have fun or better yet does not know how to have fun. If you think something is funny then you laugh, is laughing not a form of fun or having fun? Maybe for someone who says that they do not have fun, they simply have no idea what fun really is. Maybe they do not have fun but because they do not accept the fact that some things are fun and can be fun. Why is it really so difficult to just let go and have fun? I wonder these things simply because I can't truly grasp the concept that someone cannot have fun as an adult. Maybe it is not the fact that an adult cannot have fun, maybe it is that an adult does not want to have fun, or accept the fact that they can have fun if they let their guards down. Letting your guard down is a big part of just having fun and fun can bring so much to one's life. I can appreciate the fact that some people have been through things in their life that makes them more guarded to the things they allow in their life and the way they go about living their life. However, I still do not agree with the fact that someone will never have fun, just because I believe everyone should give havng fun a fair chance. Think about it, can you really live your life to the fullest without having fun?

SN:: Today I challenge you to have fun. Try it, let your guard down, and maybe just maybe you will surprise yourself.

Get This In Time

I continue to tell someone of my past and who is still a huge part of my present how I feel. I usually say how I feel at those random, unexpected, timing is never right times and without even gathering my thoughts. I feel as though I can't breathe because my nerves are too nervous at the random times, if that makes any sense at all. You are still a constant part of my life and heart, but I believe that will never change. I hope in time, before I lose you completely that you will understand where I come from with all of my many feelings. The situation with us has not been perfect but the time hasn't either, which leads me to believe there never has been a fair chance for us whatsoever. I feel as though everything continues to bring us back to one another, or me back to you because there is truth in the situation. My feelings are real I don't draw them on with a pencil just to erase them, they are inked in permanent marker and haven't left since the beginning and more than likely will not leave. So I ask you to please find it in your heart to understand and accept what I am saying, and know that I truly mean it more than anything. There will never be this kind of history with anyone else regardless of future situations. I feel like I wouldn't know how to hang on to someone else the way I have you through everything from the good to the bad. However I do get a little discouraged because I feel like I have said some of the same things to you more than enough. I can only hope that saying them one more time will be the deal breaker that will make you realize that I really am sincere. Please get this in time so that I can finally breathe again. <3