Get This In Time

I continue to tell someone of my past and who is still a huge part of my present how I feel. I usually say how I feel at those random, unexpected, timing is never right times and without even gathering my thoughts. I feel as though I can't breathe because my nerves are too nervous at the random times, if that makes any sense at all. You are still a constant part of my life and heart, but I believe that will never change. I hope in time, before I lose you completely that you will understand where I come from with all of my many feelings. The situation with us has not been perfect but the time hasn't either, which leads me to believe there never has been a fair chance for us whatsoever. I feel as though everything continues to bring us back to one another, or me back to you because there is truth in the situation. My feelings are real I don't draw them on with a pencil just to erase them, they are inked in permanent marker and haven't left since the beginning and more than likely will not leave. So I ask you to please find it in your heart to understand and accept what I am saying, and know that I truly mean it more than anything. There will never be this kind of history with anyone else regardless of future situations. I feel like I wouldn't know how to hang on to someone else the way I have you through everything from the good to the bad. However I do get a little discouraged because I feel like I have said some of the same things to you more than enough. I can only hope that saying them one more time will be the deal breaker that will make you realize that I really am sincere. Please get this in time so that I can finally breathe again. <3